[ Siffrin was in the loops long enough to learn healing Craft from observation alone. From the state they were in when she saw them in that memory, Loop was there at least that long, with no support and no answers at all. Just trying to imagine what they were going through, alone, makes her heart ache. ]

Stress can have a profound effect on the mind, even when there aren't lives at stake. That doesn't even begin to describe what you went through. I doubt anything you've experienced is very surprising in that sense.